ช่วยแนะนำทรงผมให้ทีค่ะ

chapter 1:
' i'm bored... i don't even know what to do anymore. Why am i living until these day? I'm so bored of being like this, there's no reason for me to live anyway...'
-Will my life get any better from now on?-
This question have been repeated ovwe and over in my head. I have doen nothing more in my life than just wake up, working, and wasted the time in my life doing something else. It have been like this everyday...
what's the point of living anyway?
people were born to live and to die. So if we're going to born burt die later on, then why are we exist at the first place? I can't get over it...

When my parents had passed away, my aunt's the person who took care of me from then. She's very kind person. She loved me like I was her own son and  I also loved her like she was my real mother as well. My aunt doesn't have any kid and single by the way. Because I loved her as well as she loved me, i don't want to bother her any longer. She had done a lots for me, so I asked her if I could leave her to live by my own. At first,she seemed to refused but she let me do what i wanted anyway...

it's have been 2 years now since I left her. She still contact me every single week to see if I was fine. This is when i found out that life's much harder than I
though. When I was first move from Busan to Seoul, I was persuade to be working as a waiter at the coffee shop which it's my current job right now. I have no idea why i decided to take this job, ther're so many options out there that I could do but i just had no idea. The coffee shop that I was working on right now is called 'B.A.P coffee house' where b.a.p is stand for Best Absolute Perfect. The shop is not small but it's wasn't  big either. This shop is very well known by  the waiter's reputation. Everyone who worked is very handsome but what is unique and catch most eople's attentions is that we're all have blonde hairs. Including the owner of the shop Himchan as well. Himchan's very handsome person. When i first saw him, i was kind of amaze of how he looked because i thought that he would be older but it's turned out that he's still young. Himchan's very nice to me when i first move here, he still being nice to me but not as much as he used to. He just acted more and more like a mother instead.
His boyfriend Youngjae, is the closet